Not long after the rocket-clock tick-tocked past midnight to begin 2010, it dawned on me, I turn 30 this year! During 2009, I had moments of anxiety knowing that ‘next year’ I turn 30. ‘Next year’ is now ‘this year’. ‘This year’ is pretty much the end of life as I know it. Some have called this a quarter-life crisis. Row laughed when I suggested this. She said “what, you think you’re going to live to 120 years old?!?!”
She has a point. But just like a mid-life crisis is normally after the half-way mark, 30 is a mathematically valid time to be having a quarter-life crisis. I really respect the bible college that I attend, in fact I quite like it and see the benefit of being there. But sometimes, I feel a bit like Billy Madison. I know there are serial students, but they normally have a PHD by my age. I’m just doing another Bachelor’s degree, I don’t have a full-time job, I have about 50 casual jobs. I kinda feel like I’m waiting to get on with life.
Here’s my plan to combat quarter-life freaking out: GET OVER IT and press on toward the goal. There’s no point being all stressy-bessy. Too many important things to do with the short time I’ve got left. Here’s a quote from this blog post:
Matt Chandler shared the other night that each year he goes to a cemetery and finds the grave of someone who had died at the same age as his current age. He then reflects upon his own life and the reality that this year could be his last year on earth, and resolves to not waste it.
Matt Chandler has recently been diagnosed with a brain tumour and begun chemo. It’s encouraging to read through his blog posts and tweets and see his perseverance and desire to glorify God through his suffering. This could be his last year on earth.
Likewise, it could be my last year on earth. So I’m resolved to not waste 2010. I don’t want to sit around waiting for more exciting things in 2011. I don’t want to sit around reminiscing on the good old days. Here’s some specific resolutions:
- Identity – know that I’m united with Christ and that this changes EVERYTHING!
- Husband – selflessly and lovingly serve Row (i.e. stop being a selfish jerk)
- Father – intentionally bring up Sam in the “training and instruction of the Lord”
- Preacher – make the most of many great opportunities to preach Jesus
- Student – work flippin’ hard at college. Yep, that includes Greek
- Time – don’t waste it on non-essentials